Thankful at this very moment

I just finished my first week of CPE (Clinical Pastoral Education), and will share more about that experience later. However, it became clear to me that in order to give and minister this summer, I need to be very intentional in my spiritual practices. One practice I am going to intentionally bring back is my daily practice of listing what I am most thankful for *at this moment* … I will do this at least once a day and at least once a week share here. I encourage others to do this for yourself, and please share here and elsewhere your thankful list as well. It’s a wonderful practice.

1. breath
2. children
3. my children :-)
4. my husband
5. my parents
6. my husband’s parents
7. all who are supporting us through this summer from keeping us in prayer to keeping our daughter for a times (or many times) while we are at our CPE assignments
8. my wonderful CPE group — classmates, current chaplain residents, staff chaplains and the rest of the Pastoral Care staff
9. a place to sleep at night (and man do I sleep sound when I get to now!)
10. The strength to be up at 5 a.m. each day this week!

Peace be with you!

Love and belief,
Tami

Distinctive Lutheran Spirituality / Spiritual Practices (and some reflection on a semester looking at Spiritual Practices)

It’s the last week of the Fall semester here at Wartburg Seminary. I likely won’t be able to really reflect on the entire semester until the space of Christmas is between me and my last paper (likely to be finished Friday morning), but I am starting to feel a shift in things as the my first semester ends. I’m connecting lots of dots so to speak, and things are really coming together as many of the classes wrap up.

The last Spiritual Practices lecture was held this past Tuesday (small group finishes tomorrow, Thursday), and we ended as we began with a panel of Professors sharing their thoughts on Spirituality and Spiritual Practices. The intended focus was around the question — Is There a Distinctive Lutheran Spirituality? I am not sure we really answered that question, but the comments were interesting and thought provoking.

The connections for me can be summarized in Spiritual Practices being grounded in the Word of God, and that for Lutherans, Spiritual Practices will look like Jesus Christ. And, I think related to that, Lutheran Spiritual Practices are grace-filled practices (centered on life in Jesus Christ and bringing gratitude) that lead us to our neighbor, and these practices remain a struggle due to the reality of sin (so we shouldn’t expect perfection).

That little summary is really a lot.

During the semester we went through many traditional and untraditional Spiritual Practices (from lectio divina to fasting to deep listening in lecture … to labyrinth “walking” (or tracing) to praying the daily examen to play/laughter/fun as a Spiritual Practice in small groups… and many more introduced in our readings). Although I didn’t enjoy all of the Spiritual Practices we tried, I have enjoyed learning about them.

However, now that can “test” any spiritual practice for myself personally as to if it “looks” like Jesus Christ, it makes it much easier to know if it’s a practice I should spend my time practicing. Does it draw me to my neighbor and make me a gracious presence when with my neighbor (neighbor meaning all others in this context just as it does in the gospels)? Does the practice add to, facilitate or otherwise bring me towards a thankful heart? Do I recognize my own struggle within that practice? Is the practice truly grounded in God’s Word? Is it something that is, for me, truly woven into these distinctive characteristics or can I walk through it on a human level only? — if so, it’s not a true spiritual practice (for me; it might be for another).

Now I have to decide what I am going to do with this information. (Much of which I think I knew on some level before, but now can articulate at least a little bit.) I have struggled this semester with continuing a healthy personal spiritual practice. This is true in part because of having to re-learn my habits, rituals, and how I meditate and pray within my current space and time. But, I think I have also struggled because we have actively been trying so many specific Spiritual Practices, and I genuinely consider each one as something to possibly do.

Now it’s time to step back and appreciate most from a distance while actively doing those that will most allow me to participate in meaningful and tangible ways with Christ.

I cannot just immediately tell you what those will be, but I think it will be some type of centered prayer or possibly a combination of simple centered prayer and a return to the daily examen, and a near daily participation in some type of family Spiritual Practice. Ideally Shawn and I would return to a daily time of prayer and meditation on the Word as well as beginning some type of hands-on Spiritual Practices (or maybe trying a new practice each month until we have enough to just rotate through them with her — fun ones, like praying in color and praying the catechism with prayer beads are where I will begin).

What Spiritual Practices do practice regularly or appreciate?

Does your faith have a distinctive spirituality? If so (or not), please share.

(And if you read my list at all closely, you’ll realize that the actual practices we learned about or participated in are anything but distinctive to the Lutheran faith. :-)

Thankful for at this very moment

Right now I am sitting in a coffee shop in La Crosse, WI catching up on, well, everything. My goal for this time is to get organized and prioritize my to-do list so the next hours of homework are productive, and leave me feeling really good going into next week (of course that will take more than a little weekend reading as well).

This is my first full weekend to spend back here with Megan since fall semester began. Like so much of life, this is really really wonderful, and really really hard. I am intentionally focussing on the wonderful … and praying I can continue to be intentional throughout the day/week/month/year … and beyond. So, while I miss Shawn and Nessa, and also wish I could spend the entire day visiting with friends while here, here is what I am thankful for at this very moment:

1. Really really good coffee :-)
2. Great care alternative practitioners that make coming home a relief for my achey body too!
3. Wonderful time chatting and just “being” with Megan last night!!! (She is one of the brightest stars in my life and yet the more time that passes the more fitting it seems that the two of us decided long ago that she was “my butterfly” )
4. Confidence in my wonderful husband that our home and daughter do not require my constant presence to flourish (I am free to leave without leaving detailed instructions LOL)
5. A cozy place to stay on my weekends back … the farm is our perfect “retreat” — Thanks be to God (and to mom and dad!)
6. that Megan did not request to go to Oktoberfest this weekend LOL … seriously SO thankful for this :-) … we have other mother/daughter plans instead
7. That I LOVE the books I am reading for my classes — it’s great that my biggest problem is that I have to tell myself “no” and prioritize my reading to get done what I truly need to get done
8. all of the warm (and beautiful!) quilts I get to use constantly (I am so spoiled by all of the quilts my mom has gifted us with — thank you!)
9. The support that Shawn and I are receiving as part of this journey (scholarships, congregational support, anonymous donations, and prayers and more prayers to just name a few) … I cry in gratitude when I take a moment to think about it!
10. That I have multiple communities to share my love, abundance and gratitude with!

Love and belief to all!!!